Seek and you will find... It's true.

Yesterday I happened upon a program of Joyce Meyers. Although I no longer believe as they (Word of Faith) do and I now know it's all twisted, I still stopped and listened for about 10 minutes. Why? I have no clue, except that she said something to the effect of... stop trying to be perfect on the outside while your miserable on the inside. That's my loose translation of what I heard her say.

I guess it just goes to show that God really can use anyone because He used her to help me to understand more of what I've been struggling with (explained in the last post).

As I listened to her explain how ugly she was on the inside while trying to be "spiritual" on the outside, I began to understand just how really ugly that was.

When Jesus talked to the religious people, He told them they were like pretty painted tombs on the outside but they were literally dead and rotting on the inside. Again ~ my loose translation of Matthew 23:27.

But I began to see that even though I wasn't trying to be "religious" or "spiritual" anymore, I was still dead and rotting on the inside and that was my constant pain. Something that I couldn't outrun or hide from, even though I was trying hard to do so.

And then, as if that wasn't enough of a revelation for one day. I went to the site of Dave Burchett and read this post.

Intrigued, I went to the free download and listened to this man describe my life. I laughed and cried and felt in awe of a God that could put up with the likes of me.

I can't say it better than he did so please go get the free download.

I immediately ordered his book from his website and am very excited to read it.